4 posts tagged “happiness”

no, i am not referring to Rain, the korean super rockstar, just rain!

rain is the prettiest thing on earth, or maybe that's because i've never seen snow, some people might say. snow is a bit too cold for my liking, so i'm sticking to rain. (:

this is such a random post. have got work to do, and my brain is buzzing! with activity. is that supposed to be good or is that supposed to be good?

i foresee a happy week ahead.

oh, our robotics sweaters are here, so you'll see me in a black and ORANGE sweater for the next 2 weeks or so.

in retrospect, my life is pretty good so far. after taking an honest inventory of my life and my fortunes (not material wealth, obvs, i'm broke financially), i suppose there are things and people to be Happy about, yet reading people's blogs and voxes and livejournals makes me feel like an undeserving child holding on to an overlarge lollipop that never finishes, no matter how much i suck and i lick and i bite, because everyone seems to be in a gloomy mood, and here i am, a single ray of sunshine that is more glaring than warm, and this - being the only one happy and cheerful this week - is getting uncomfortable and unsettling, since i used to be one of the emo/depressed/unhappy/confused crowd. maybe i am finally weaning off being emo or easily depressed. i don't know, but i hope this change is Good. it isn't really my fault, is it, when people have been unhappy all week, whilst i, in sharp contrast, have been sailing on cloud nine for so long i should have built a house on it? either way, i am sorry for being happy when people are sad. and it is lonely, when you are the only one who is happy, and you don't know how to make people around you smile, laugh or generally just cheer up.

on other things, math revision is going really slowly. i fear for my math grades, very very much. but i must survive and do well.

i thank the power above. i thank everyone. i thank my group mates. i thank richard house comm. i thank the sec 2s who came for the dry run. i thank mrs ban. i thank my persistence, to a certain extent. thank you's done, i really am grateful this week was, overall, Very Good for me. i hope the people in my life are doing well, and i am sorry if i have been Too High and have been unable to be understanding or something. >< i think i must also count my stars and thank them as well, because the joy derived from crazy things i do (think noob moonwalk, which was caught on more than 2 cameras. omg. and Running from wenyan during house practice) and sane important things i do (like the math trail and the training for cca juniors) is filling up my life by the gallon. 

I SERIOUSLY THANK THE PEOPLE ALL AROUND ME, WHO UH, IDK MADE MY EVERYDAY LIFE BRIGHTER DURING THE WHOLE OF THIS WEEK.

i was in school today, from 659am all the way to 534pm. talk about school being my second home, ha. was in school for the Very Last House Practice of the year. nobody was especially sad that it was the last house prac, not even me. :O maybe that's because i know i'll see them again during Sports Fest or something. anyway, i spent most of house prac Sticking Buttons On Hair Pins? Or Clips? i realise i am quite adept at using UHU glue and making the correct amount of glue flow out onto the little strip of metal, just enough to get the button to stick. win. =) glen was especially noob at it. hahaha. she squeezes and a whole GLOB of glue lands on the clip, rendering the clip useless, because the two strips of metal are Super-Glued together. roflmao, i laugh at you, glen. it was Quite Fun. i felt like a Primary 1 Kid during art and craft, putting cute little things together and calling them my art project, just that this art project is Important for the House - they are souvenirs! for everyone during Sports Fest. 

and today! i saw my new form teacher! at the area right outside the canteen near to the field and yet not across the road yet. :DDD she is the coolest, no fight man. total goof ball (eh, i am using her words), but she is cooler than mr toh even. and she is in Richardson, WHOO. used to be in Richardson when she was still in RGS. all the COOL teachers are in Richardson. HA. like ahemazahar. roflmao. i like ms tan a lot, she likes latte too. her Favourite Drink. ;DDD

anyway, march past rehearsal was a tad bit annoying, thanks to ms nat iah een. geez. she is so pms-y that i want to flip. but good thing is, we were only under the Hot Hot Sun for 30 minutes or so, and no more. phew. then we had CHEERS! (oh i forgot to mention, we played a prank on the sec 1s and bluffed them that the mass dance was corrected. hahaha and that they had only TWO days to get the dance done. nat pulled it off, no doubt, LD girl. she sounded and looked so serious. i was stoning, i remember, in an attempt to look serious.) cheers were good, considering the sec 1s were Damn Loud, omg. 0o RICH-WHAT was Bouncing off the canteen walls and made heads turn. YEY, we are All Set for Sports Fest! currently, richardson is SECOND! BUT WE WILL CATCH UP AND WINNNN, HAHAHA. go, richardson. we can do it. YEAH. ;D

house prac ended with debrief and it was something like per normal. just that my bloopbuddy (sharon) gave me a Long Hug before she left. =| figure that girl is quite sad about it being the last house prac. will do something about it. xD 

rushed off upstairs to check out the answer sheet for math trail dry run, and felt quite scared and slightly unprepared, as to how to address the sec 2s who are coming. and i remembered what they said about me during lead camp - a bit unsure, but still confident enough; quite good at organising, and yet able to put people at ease. it was quite enlightening and heartening. lead camp that is. shuting was my facil! and she shared her ice cream with me on the last day of camp :D hahaha, but that's another story.

so, i went back to class to get the stuff done. then huan chin came up and helped me get stuff like bringing the cones down to D2-21. that is where all the business began. i cut to the chase about most things and talked very fast, like something in my brain clicked and got the thought processes moving, gears turning faster than they used to, all under the pressure of necessity and of urgency. a lot of things were done, amazingly. briefing went fine, without a single rehearsal. and the sec 2s got me. running of trail was pretty successful with only a few glitches here and there. stations were moderate, so i presume, it would be manageable for sec 1s. making the trail too challenging is risky - a lot of problems can occur. so we'd rather it be fun. scoring though, was a problem. and the last question. but overall, i would consider it a tremendous success, for a first attempt at running a mini trail. =) brilliant job, math trailers. ho. we discussed the problems and stuff and distributed work. effective, efficient and i like it. good. 

after that. DINNER, with my parents, who fetched me from school. and thank you amy, for what you said, ya. :) dinner was at Great World City! and i am surprised i didn't buy an ice cream, hahaha. i need to start running or something. i am getting Fat, geez. and talking about fat and eating, I DIDN'T EAT A SQUARE MEAL THE WHOLE DAY, UNTIL DINNER. HORROR. i don't care if i am getting fat, but i Must have my food. fitting exercise into my schedule is a big problem, though. i suppose i should find a way. 

on other things, there are so many things in life worth pursuing. like GUITAR! and MORE PIANO. and if i can, SAXOPHONE. omgosh, total coolness. SEREEEEENAAAAAA. TEACH ME. and i wonder if you come here. other than learning instruments, my greatest dream this year is to compose a song or something for 401. possible? maybe. can try with huan chin and all the other music geniuses, if they are willing. and other than music, i NEED to learn how to cook. all i can cook is instant noodles. and not even an egg. the last time i tried, i burnt a hole. through the place where the yolk was supposed to be. win. 

life is beautiful. and i don't think i am wearing any rose-tinted glasses, no. 

i have opinions about the happiness article in the mindyourbody section of straits times.

but i have to save them for later. work calls, you see. =/ will post later. used some time to post about our new form (go to http://kidonherbike.livejournal.com), who is a very cool lady.

and i feel that happiness shouldn't just be a short-lived thing, otherwise it means just about nothing, when placed beside a life which has been lived with such a vigour pursuit of things that matter. that's what i feel most strongly about, after i read the article this afternoon, and after i read andrea's email and post.

will elaborate, tomorrow, most probs. =)

i suppose yesterday was a day well-lived, and that's good, but what matters is i try to live every day well. i will make the most of every day, seize chances and all that jazz. mr keatings would have approved. GATHER YE ROSE BUDS WHILE YE MAY. CARPE DIEM.

happiness, is a warm gun. bang bang shoot shoot.

i am on a beatles fever.

CHRISTMAS TIME IS HERE AGAIN.

edit:

i think i will miss listening to the beatles non-stop the whole night, drinking latte, thinking about things in such a way, where things become rational, yet still attached to my emotions, just that i don't get confused and frustrated how things never seem to work out my way. letting go of all of the previous expectations and clearing my mind of emotional distractions is a breath of fresh air. a rose is a rose is a rose. everything is crystal clear, like the summer skies of the UK i miss so dearly, cloudless and so blue; things that screwed up, things that used to make me beat myself up aren't thorns in my flesh anymore, they are just roses with thorns on stems intact, pricks me a bit to think about it, but just not hard enough to draw blood, because i gain something in return - the experience.

well, i suppose thinking rationally helps me to look at things in a brighter light, and be optimistic and happy about all of the things to come, contributes majorly to trying to make the most of every day. of course emotions play a huge part, just don't let momentary setbacks get you down. keep trying, never give up and be optimistic. my four goals since sec 2: courage.strength.will.drive. should have a new addition - optimism. make it two - passion.

i believe being optimistic helps one to be Happy (haha, common sense, i know), and passion too. passion is another thing altogether. it drives you to do things you never dreamt you could ever do. i know i never even thought of being vice chair of robotics. i know i never even thought of being vice chair of 301'06. i know i never even thought of being in house comm. but that was all back in sec 2, where i didn't know what i wanted, what i lived for. and somehow, along the way, in sec 3, i knew what i wanted, for my class, for my cca, for my house, and decided go all out for all three. "only passions - great passions - can elevate the soul to great things." i wouldn't say i did great things, but i had this strange drive to do my best for all three. and despite the mistakes, it was all worthwhile. it made me happier than i have ever been in my previous two years. the sense of accomplishment is sweet, like the sound of the bat hitting the ball. sweet spot, dude. passion can change how you do things, ie you put your heart into it, because you care about it, you need to do it, you have a cause for it. doing things you like, you have a passion for, is the pursuit of happiness that hayden was talking about in his article, i believe. happiness is then qualified as an activity (as in the article, said by aristotle), where things are done. picture this: you pursue your every passion, if circumstances allow, undertaking everything with nothing but your best, isn't that a good life worth being happy about?  

happiness, is a warm gun. bang bang shoot shoot.

critics say that the lyrics of that song by the beatles had druggie references, but anyway. i like the song. ;D

will write more, tomorrow. math is killing my brain, big time.

<3 you, world and neighbourhood.