crossings

1. i need to have heart.

2. this is the biggest decision so far in my life.

3. i want it.

4. i have to make it.

5. just do it.

i cabbed to macs today. 15 bucks, with all the peak hour charge blah blah. felt damn cheated when the rain started coming in and jiaolian asked us to help keep the boats and the shoes of our team mates. stood under the eaves of the paddle lodge watching the rain fall and waiting for it to stop, which it did after a while. thank god. went for our run and came back to dry row. the weather was damn frigid, and my muscles were stiff and tense. couldn't really move properly. gave up dry rowing for a while then bern came up to get us.

yen and i ended up together again in a k2. (: and today's experience sort of proved we can row together. hahahaha. winz at life, totally. (: we capped only three times, and today i was in a SEAT. yeah, the last time i rowed with yen, i was without a seat = i am lower in the boat = my height doesn't affect CG that much = more stable (we capped twice the last time). so effectively, today's row was okay, though i'd prefer it much better if we got to row more. bleargh. there were a lot of boats today at the launching area, you see. and we let two guys go into their k2 first. -.- how gentlemanly lah, those j1 guys. so we spent about 5 to 8 minutes, waiting. -.- hahaha. but i am still quite :D that we managed it again. (: the last time i was at the back in a seat in a k2 was on saturday with nicole, and we capped >10 times. must have been the wind and my not being used to the seat.

geri and xiner, and chee and vivian are entering for that competition that's coming up. go them. (: i'm sure they will do well. yup! it felt weird at first, that's a given, what with them going for extra water training on wednesdays. frankly i wasn't too accustomed to the selectivity of a sports cca. but now looking at them working hard and being able to take part in a competition just tells me i have to work harder along with the rest to catch up. like jiaolian says, just heck and work hard, like the boys who don't really care who's training with the senior team. alright. can't wait for saturday. yes, water training again, hahaha! (: i hope jiaolian lets me and yen row together again. if not, then maybe i can try to row on my own w/o capping. want to do t1, actually, and prove i am not an imba kid first. k1 can wait, heehee.

i have loads of work and revision to do. there's 90% finished bio tutorial. there's bio/chem/math revision. and there's the stinky chem tutorial 2. o.O shimatta. wanted to go to bishan library to mug today, but it was fsking cold, so i made my way home.

adios amigozzz, need to go nap and then study. the cleaner is here, you see. vacuum cleaner and blah blah shizzo noises. grawrrr. i'm so grumpy today. i will wake up at 430, when she's done vacuuming.

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Rascal Flatts

i always liked this song, though it's supposedly a christian song?

you feel like a candle, in a hurricane.

just like a picture, with a broken frame.

very vivid images. (: enjoy it.

i listen to it when i need some ... idk, motivation to uhh, hold on. yeah.

Michael Buble - Everything

Michael Bublé

my favourite song, atm. (: it's sweet, melodious and everything that's good.

you're every song, and i sing along, cos you're my everything.

a happy song. fweeee.

take care, people in my neighbourhood. many <3s.

i shall return to doing random things that i said i'd do.

i still am a bit partial to vox when it comes to sharing music. lj doesn't really allow that.

1. It's nuts that it's already the end of term, given that i've only met my awesome awesome class just a while ago. This means that one eighth of my RJC life is Gone.
2. Looking back on Term 1, there were ups and downs, all of them savoured and weathered, so. (: I'm glad I am in canoeing, and I am improving. Go me, seriously. I'm in a mugger class, Again, but I'm surviving and thriving, because of the friends in the class. So effectively the downs have been negated by all other happy things like class outings and class lunches and class stuff in general.
3. Econs test is tomorrow. I have already revised Econs over the weekend, but I suck at Case Study questions - always have, as seen from my Geog papers. All the best to me tomorrow.
4. Actually, I think I am fortunate to be in 3M. Very fortunate. There are interesting people whom I try to get my head around. There are funny people whose jokes and antics I can laugh endlessly at. There are genuinely caring people who ask about life and whom you Like because they are nice. <3
5. Since I am at the end of the term, I shall give myself a pat on the back, so says Ms Tan (who, btw, SUANNED me AGAIN today when i said bye-bye right after she said today was the last math tutorial of the term; "i shall assume that you said that because you just had stomachache, and are not thinking straight.").  Onward to Term 2! (: Lots more exciting things, lots more to accomplish. I already have two goals in mind. I shall work hard, really hard. I have say, three plus months to accomplish one of them. Go me.

1. i am back on Vox, on a whim. i wanted to breathe life into my blogger account as well, but i forgot the password.

2. i will still be LJ-ing, because LJ pwnz. alternating between the two seems to be feasible, so that's what i'll do.

3. doing biology now, and it's raining, and jamie cullum is singing what a difference a day made on my laptop. 

4. i realise i gravitate towards silent, strong, slightly aloof people. it's a given they are harder to understand, but still.

5. i have been reading my magazines, go me. i shall not waste money.

01 爱爱爱

方大同

time for some chinese song appreciation, ha ha ha. i like this one, by fang da tong.

01 简单爱

周杰伦

and jay chou one. :D

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Elvis Costello

well. i like the lyrics. (:

1-08 Lady Marmalade

Labelle

YOU MUST KNOW THIS. IF NOT, YOU TRULY ARE DEPRIVED OF GOOD 70S MUSIC.

1-01 Livin' Thing

Electric Light Orchestra

Lesser known that Lady Marmalade, but still cool. (:

1-04 Rock The Boat

Hues Corporation

This should be familiar. (: ROCK THE BOATTTT.

1-20 Joy To The World

Three Dog Night

JEREMIAH WAS A BULL FROG. WAS A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE. I NEVER UNDERSTOOD A SINGLE WORD HE SAID. DADADA.

and i realise i don't really know, what i am doing everything i am doing now for. there has to be that little something more that drives me to do all this school stuff, but i can't figure myself out. D: i need to think of what i want to be in life, what i want out of life. and fast, i think. i'm already 16. it'll be another decade and i'll be 26, and at 26, i want to know where i am headed for the rest of my life, and how i'm going to do it. and i figure if i want to do things i love to do in life, i need to be considerably comfortable financially. there are many things i want to try. :D like surfing. like going to antarctica or something before the ice melts. like going to egypt! like going to UK to live for a few years or so. like going on a road trip in australia. blissss.

first week of school over, and i think i am handling things pretty well, pretty much like how i handled stuff in sec 3. there are still traces of how sem 1 went, but i suppose i have to ignore them, because regret is not a viable option if i want to leave things behind and let the past be the past. hakuna matata. no worries. there will be other opportunities, even if i miss some. i'm a youthhh! like mr k tan says, rofl. and as laasya sings in g chord: "I AM A YOWTH, YOU ARE A YOWTH! WE ALL LIVE IN THE HAPPY WORLD OF YOWTHS!" yowth, because we pronounced the "outh" in "youth" as the "outh" in "mouth". :D we are an ingenious bunch.  

i miss sitting with my group. the 5 yins and 1 yang. i miss laasya's random musings, weifen's drawings, jiayue's general cheerfulness, maria's general sleepiness and occasional genius, and amanda's yang-ness (ha ha ha, inside joke). they were the Best. :D our last group work together was !!! fun. it was english, if i am not wrong. and we made stupid jokes. it was after chem spa part 1, you see. chem does immense damage to human brains, srzly.

sigh. two summatives and one pt past. good. next week, there's chem spa part 2 and bio essay. oh joy. and i need to start mugging for EOY - better listen to peizhi's advice to start early. i think i'll take the night off tonight, and start work tomorrow. will plan stuff and all tonight. and after that, all i have to do is work it. not that hard, innit?